It’s days like these that no matter how much I try, no matter how many distractions I initiate, no matter what the time of day, I am constantly thinking about that thing we call life.
It makes it easy for me to process when I come to the conclusion that I was dealt a really tough set of cards that I inevitably have to deal with on a daily basis. I suppose that makes it ok, no not ok, bearable is probably the word I’m looking for.
No I wasn’t into your two parent white picket fence styled home. No I was not born into a household where “disposable income” was in the dictionary. And no I was not given the opportunities that most kids got in their lives. But you know what, it’s ok, it’s made me the person I am today, at least that’s what I tell myself.
I’ve had to work extremely hard for everything in my life. I’ve always had to go the extra mile and make every second count. Yes I was that kid that stayed in that three hour exam right till the last second, even though I had finished an hour before. I suppose in some ways you could say that I created a life for myself that I could actually call my own, one that I was solely responsible for and so could be grateful in all sense of its meaning.
In other ways… you could just say what the fuck. Unfortunately that gets you nowhere… besides maybe some mild satisfaction.
But you know what, life isn’t fair and that’s just the way it is. You make the most of the cards you’re dealt and bluff your way out of those tight situations. It’s like one big game of poker.
As my friends would say even in the most mundane of situations, the struggle is real. Indeed it is. I guess that is what makes it all worthwhile in the end. If you can persevere and get out of the shit hole that you’re in then maybe, just maybe, it all means something, so much more than your friendly neighborhood rich kid who’s been given everything they could possibly want and more. Again… maybe it’s just something we tell ourselves to feel better. Who knows?
What I do know now however is that the war never stops. You can win the current battle but just be prepared for another. Remember… the dealer is always dishing out cards left right and center In some parallel mythical world there maybe that imaginary finish line that you’ve been looking for. Unfortunately for us however, we are running in a hamster wheel.
I just hope that one day all this hard work will actually pay off and others actually believe in me, my capability, and what I’m trying to achieve with my life and those set of cards. I want nothing more than to tell everyone that I have achieved my dreams, that I am happy, and that they all can do it too if they put their minds to it. Actually I would love to wake up in a Disney film… things always work out there.
I was subjected to two completely different situations that both lead to the same conclusion, human nature is a funny cruel thing. I was with friends yesterday in CBD and after having finished a night of Karaoke. We spotted a girl on the bench by herself and probably around 17 years of age. Something was off and when we looked closer, it appeared that she had slit her wrists and was in a very bad state. I didn’t want to approach in case we scared her off. Instead we called the cops and ambulance and kept a very close and watchful eye on her. She realized this and started walking, to her dismay her fatigue stopped her from walking very far. Fast forward an hour of playing cat and mouse, we were finally able to lead the authorities to the right place where she received medical attention, and what I hope will be some help in the future. What disgusted me the most though was the people who walked past her, noticed her state, and kept walking without a trace or care in the world. I experienced this very same act on my recent New Years holiday where we came across a very dangerous bush fire that could have easily destroyed a whole community in mere seconds. We stopped to help put it out, and yet people who saw what was happening slowed down, satisfied their curiosity, and kept driving on their merry way, no help no nothing. Humans are cruel and if there’s one thing I think it’s people should not be afraid to speak out. If more people actually did something rather than pretending nothing happened we would live in a better world. Perhaps that Indian woman who was assaulted in India would still be alive. Who knows, Henderson Bay could be no more, and lets just say the same goes for that girl. No one should ever be afraid to speak out especially if it involves someone you know regardless of the repercussions. If you have the means to do something, you have a responsibility to do so, end of. I hope that girl gets the help she needs and I’m glad we could at least do something to help her out, whether she realises it or not.-Lost Boy
Little sneak peak of my interview with Solo from Justice Crew… Not long to go now! #exciting #watchthisspace #justicecrew (Taken with Instagram)
Another event done and dusted! Was inspiring and amazing having an opportunity to interview some of the biggest names in the bboy scene! Time to get ready for tomorrow’s shoot! #ontothenextone (Taken with Instagram)
Just casually won the 500 ticket Jackpot at the arcade… No biggie #likeabause #winning #arcadechampion (Taken with Instagram)